Who do you want to be? Where do you want to go? These thoughts have been a constant for me the past couple of months. How do I still not know who I am or who I want to become? Right? At 27 years old, you’d think I’d know or already be there. I am always told “It’s okay, you have time to figure it out”, but do I really though? I feel like life is just passing me by and I still have nothing to show for it.
In recent days and weeks, I have moved to a new home to call my own and with that came a lot of tears, stress and even arguments. It definitely was not easy but now its starting to feel like home. I have also been dealing with a bit of a health scare that I am not sure if I am cleared of just yet. But, due to all of this it had me thinking of life, where I am and where I believe I should be. You ever hear the saying “life is what you make it”? What does that really mean? How do I create a life that I believe I deserve if there’s constant obsticales in my way? You might be reading this and wondering “well damn, if she’s stuck, how can I get unstuck”? The answer? Because, we are all different. I feel like I say that so often “we’re all different”. But, it’s true! We are! So, the question is how do we get unstuck? When a specific change may work for some, it doesn’t mean it’ll work for others. I myself , am trying to figure out who I want to be and where I want to go. I thought my passion was becoming a Mental Health Counselor, but as of late I have been questoning it and have noticed my lack of excitement and passion.
I do know that I want to change my environment within the next few months. And when I say that, I mean to move to a new state. Give myself a clean slate and a place where I can sit and really listen to my heart on where my path begins. I personally feel when you change your environment it gives more opportunity for positive change. It also helps you see new perspectives of yourself and how far you have come. I know myself enough to know when a big change is needed. My issue is, I HATE change! Anyone else hate it? It’s a scary and intimidating thing, it makes you question yourself whether its the right choice for you and sometimes makes you back out because of how scary it can be. But, here’s what I will say to you. Change is SO GOOD! Whether the change be within a relationship that is no longer benefiting you, or that job lacks passion and drive, or that place you call home is no longer feeling like home, make that change or changes necessary that will make you happy and excited to be living. By doing this, this helps you grow and finally help you find out who you want to be. With each change provides growth and with growth that’s when you know who you want to be and where you want to go. Change needs to be looked at less with fear and more with excitement. Let’s start doing that and see where “change” can take us! You aren’t alone, let’s do this together!